bleh

Nothing much to say today. I've noticed lately that I'm a total movie junky, I love seeing new movies! Or maybe it's not so much that I'm a junky, just that all the movies I've seen lately have been insanely good! Black Swan and the Fighter, I can't say enough how much I loved both of them!

Also, I've been trying new stuff in the kitchen. I should preface this by saying I am super super lazy and very not creative in the kitchen. So my "new things" are like roasting potatoes haha! But after watching the food channel (which I do too often) I get really energized and ready to cook, until I actually try, then I quickly become disenchanted. Maybe it's because I can't cook, maybe it's because I don't have the patience, either way, I've decided I need to make more of an effort in there.

Well, that's about all I have to say today. I'm getting up the nerve to have a semi-serious talk today at work, so we'll see how that goes!

Wish me luck!

Edit

I really need/want to update the look of my profile! but i'm far too lazy to do that. I feel like I've been far too lazy to do most things this weekend.

-shower...nah
-study...eh, maybe
-eat, well ok that one has happened maybe too much!
-clean: hahahahahaha!!!

Anyway, I'm craving going to see black swan again, it's like I can't stop thinking about that damn movie!

I've decided that life is one giant rollercoaster. I used to think that highs and lows in my relationships were signs of bad or good. They're not; just the way life moves! It feels good to start learning more about myself and life, blah blah blah.

I'm gonna go eat some homemade jello!!!

WOW!! it has been a ridiculously long time since I've posted, I guess that is how life goes. Well I guess I should update;

Jake and I moved in together!!! In JULY it's been quite awhile haha but it is going great and I think I can say we are loving it. I feel like I'm learning to live with another person and share my things and space. I feel like we are beginning to start our own 'family' but in a slow manner.
On another note, work is still work! I'm learning a lot and I love it! Life is just good, I'm happy, stressed but happy.

One thing I've noticed ever since I got back from Spain is that I really need to work on relationships and building them and maintaining them. I'm not the type of person to just put myself out there and befriend everyone I meet. I feel like I really want to work on my relationships with A, C, and E! I love those girls to death and hope to become closer to them even after we all grow up and move our separate ways.

Also, my best friend S, is amazing. she got married in October and I'm very happy for her. I know that newlywed life can be exciting and absorbing, but I miss my best friend at times.

WELL!
I feel like this is a long enough post to get back into the blogging world. I'll have to make this a new thing to keep up.....again.

New semester, new motivation!!!

Spain

Holy crap yes I am alive. sorry I've been totally m.i.a. the last Five weeks! But Spain has been amazing, but I am very ready to come home. Oviedo is such a beautiful place, the perfect blend of old meets new. Anyway, I have absolutely loved class here and the people! I live with a host mom, Marisol, and she is absolutely amazing! She has two dogs, Randy and Ruchi and they are also amazing! And she is very understanding that I don't speak Spanish very well haha and she is so laid back. The second night in Spain I drank a little too much and threw up, ya, welcome to Spain! There is a lot going on in my head right now but I am just starting to wind down and I am ready to come home. I think once I get home I'll be able to reflect much better and write more about the entire experience.

But there are some great people here and the people of Oviedo are truly amazing.

madrid

I'M IN MADRID!!!!!! it is absolutely terrifying flying by yourself in a foreign country by the way. I keep getting overwhelming waves of emotion and I burst into tears on the spot; not sure what's with that but it's getting old haha. anyway, I have the best friends in the world for being so supportive of this trip and i already cannot wait to get back and tell them everything!!! BUT i only have 7 minutes left on my purchased internet and must say goodbye for the moment. I'll try to write again! adios!

lost

Sorry guys, I've been kinda m.i.a. the last few days I'm going through a rough patch and really don't feel like talking about it yet. I'm still working on how to handle everything so I don't want to rant about anything yet. I'm a little heartbroken I'll put it that way and so I'm a slight wreck.
I don't really know what else to talk about because this seems to be all I can think about. Sorry I'm being such a downer I just feel a little out of control right now and I'm trying really hard to reign it all in.
That's all I have to say right now, I just feel like laying in bed right now.

help cont'd

FIRST: AHHHH I HATE TYPOS!!!! especially when I notice them in my own typing, I feel like a total failure when I see them haha.

Anyway, back to my previous post. I really am worried about them, but I don't want to enable their current behavior. I was talking to my mom today and she said that they probably have to be with someone to feel good about themselves, which I can understand, and that is a bad habit to fall into, but I also think that that doesn't excuse your behavior around others. I know I just keep saying the same thing but I am just trying to think of something to say to them that would be meaningful, but not offensive. I really think they need to quit doing things for others attention and acceptance and just needs to do what makes them happy for once. I think they need to find a way to not be insecure about every word that comes out of their mouth. I know, easier said than done but it realllly needs to be done!!! I feel so bad for talking about this, but I really am concerned about this situation. hmm bother. well that was a wonderful vent/thinking session. thanks!

on a lighter note, when to sushi with some good people, it was nice to meet new people. really excited for work tomorrow!

AAANNNDDD holy crap, I really have to start preparing for Spain. damn.