adfhdfdlfdsnfhdslfjlgjgrrrrghdljahahahahahahhhhhh!!! WOW! I feel better. So I've been noticing something about myself a lot lately. I Need to be in control of every situation I'm in. It drives me insane. It doesn't matter the setting either, I just have to be in control, or at least know everything that is going on.
I've noticed it at work a lot recently. If I come up with an idea and tell someone else, and then someone suggests something else, I get hyper-sensitive and wonder why my idea wasn't good enough, or why they are trying to steal my spot. I know it's a horrid insecurity but it drives me nuts. And no matter how the idea is pitched, I feel like they are saying I'm stupid. I have got to find a way to get over this teenage mindset before it drives me literally insane. I just always want to do things my way. I need to just fucking chill ha, there is no other way to put it. So I feel better now, thanks for letting me vent!!
