Going strong

Three weeks into the semester and still going strong on study habits And on the Blog! yay me! This semester has been refreshingly difficult, it's a nice change from getting in the same flow every semester. And I actually like the classes and being challenged, I still feel like I'm on the right path with marketing-but-it Is only three weeks into it so I should give it more time before I judge fully. I think I like this semester because I feel like I'm taking ownership of my collegiate career etc. Along with that I feel like I'm trying to grow up in other places. I need to keep working hard at my work though. I feel like I've been slacking off a lot lately in that area, I can't get too comfortable and I'm trying not to do that, it's a hard boundary to play!! I know I have lots to work on in that area, and that makes me nervous as hell really. Life is all about impressions and I'm trying really hard to keep a positive impression there; any wrong step and that can crumble-yikes.

On a personal note: Jake and I had a really good conversation today that helped me see things about our relationship a little better. We are both completely different people and we help bring each other down a bit. But I've felt recently like we have completely separate social lives and never really see each other on the weekends and stuff. Because I'm not 21 I've felt kinda left out :(
But when I brought up this issue today he said you're right we do have different social lives and it's for the better. When we go out together I end up getting really grumpy because we're stuck in social situations that make me uncomfortable, (lots of drunk people, loud, obnoxious, too many, etc.) I end up getting really stressed and grumpy, not to mention tired because we're out till 3 or 4 in the morning and it's not fair to either of us to put each other through that. So to openly talk about the situation was nice. When I turn 21 it'll be a completely different story though!

So to wrap it up, I'm not one for house parties, and it's better to just keep my nose out of it haha. Can't wait to be 21 and be able to party it up though!!

All in all it's been a good weekend so far, just lots of work, which =$$$. Speaking of, I think it might be time for retail therapy soon, spring fever ahhh.

This has been a very long post, felt good but it's time to go now! As always, thanks for letting me vent.

words

I don't have much to say today. I know it's not spring yet, but I feel like it's time to start redoing my wardrobe a bit! Shopping online can be addicting. During the winter I want to be so energetic and proactive and get out and do things, but then I walk outside and lose all motivation because it's so FREEZZIINNGG!!

I really need to be more proactive, even if it's just taking on projects or something! I think I might want to get into baking as well, but then I sit down to look up the recipes, and lose all motivation. I blame winter. Something about the cold just sucks the oommpha right outta me.

But! on the bright side, I am starting a project for work, a magnet board! It will only take 10 minutes, but it's still something. Anywhoo, I'm out of things to say for the moment, maybe in all my boredom I'll think of something else to post about later.

photo that was Supposed to go in the last post!

hmmm

Alright, I know that this is a daring, and possibly seem somewhat desperate post.

But:

I've noticed, and not just lately, that everyone is getting married, literally everyone. Now I'm not saying that I'm in ANY rush to get married, but sometimes I catch myself wishing. For some reason my brain has always had this ridiculous occupation with weddings, engagements, dresses, flowers, literally every aspect of a wedding. I catch myself planning and planning and planning my own! Why? I really don't know, but my brain just loves it.

I hope this post doesn't freak anyone out and think I'm a wedding/bridal crazed maniac, but just a fair warning, when I DO get engaged, I won't shut up about it, just saying haha.

*special disclaimer..jake: if you Ever read this, which i doubt you will, don't think this is a giant Hint..it's not. promise.

Ugh, just had to get that off my chest, because some part in my brain keeps bugging me about it.

This is what my brain has come up with....maybe....

bleh

Nothing much to say today. I've noticed lately that I'm a total movie junky, I love seeing new movies! Or maybe it's not so much that I'm a junky, just that all the movies I've seen lately have been insanely good! Black Swan and the Fighter, I can't say enough how much I loved both of them!

Also, I've been trying new stuff in the kitchen. I should preface this by saying I am super super lazy and very not creative in the kitchen. So my "new things" are like roasting potatoes haha! But after watching the food channel (which I do too often) I get really energized and ready to cook, until I actually try, then I quickly become disenchanted. Maybe it's because I can't cook, maybe it's because I don't have the patience, either way, I've decided I need to make more of an effort in there.

Well, that's about all I have to say today. I'm getting up the nerve to have a semi-serious talk today at work, so we'll see how that goes!

Wish me luck!

Edit

I really need/want to update the look of my profile! but i'm far too lazy to do that. I feel like I've been far too lazy to do most things this weekend.

-shower...nah
-study...eh, maybe
-eat, well ok that one has happened maybe too much!
-clean: hahahahahaha!!!

Anyway, I'm craving going to see black swan again, it's like I can't stop thinking about that damn movie!

I've decided that life is one giant rollercoaster. I used to think that highs and lows in my relationships were signs of bad or good. They're not; just the way life moves! It feels good to start learning more about myself and life, blah blah blah.

I'm gonna go eat some homemade jello!!!

WOW!! it has been a ridiculously long time since I've posted, I guess that is how life goes. Well I guess I should update;

Jake and I moved in together!!! In JULY it's been quite awhile haha but it is going great and I think I can say we are loving it. I feel like I'm learning to live with another person and share my things and space. I feel like we are beginning to start our own 'family' but in a slow manner.
On another note, work is still work! I'm learning a lot and I love it! Life is just good, I'm happy, stressed but happy.

One thing I've noticed ever since I got back from Spain is that I really need to work on relationships and building them and maintaining them. I'm not the type of person to just put myself out there and befriend everyone I meet. I feel like I really want to work on my relationships with A, C, and E! I love those girls to death and hope to become closer to them even after we all grow up and move our separate ways.

Also, my best friend S, is amazing. she got married in October and I'm very happy for her. I know that newlywed life can be exciting and absorbing, but I miss my best friend at times.

WELL!
I feel like this is a long enough post to get back into the blogging world. I'll have to make this a new thing to keep up.....again.

New semester, new motivation!!!